The Green Light

6.9.05

The First Day of School

I remember when the first day of school was the biggest event of the year. Such a comination of emotions - excitement over seeing your friends and catching up on the summer, dread regarding hard teachers, bitterness that your summer was being cut short, pride over your tan/summer hookup. Well today, I also have mixxed emotions. I'm excited about my classes, I'm relieved to have a schedule again, I'm hopeful that I'll make friends and do well, and I'm terrified that if my classes aren't really amazing there will be nothing keeping me here. There was a time when on the first day of school, my mom made a big breakfast and we took pictures. Today, I'm alone in a stale dorm room, wiped out due to lack of sleep, eating stale coookies because I finished off my Nutrigrain bars and don't have anyone to go to the dining hall with, and wishing so hard that I'll wake up soon and take pictures with my parents and laugh at my mom for crying and walk into a school where everyone knows me and is happy to see me after three months apart. And I hate that I know how hopeless that wish is.

posted by Heather at 9:40 AM

5 Comments:

  • eww what a wake up call. i mean to think that one day i wont have my mom singing to me every morning, or getting shoved on the bus by a parent, or getting my pic taken the first day of school. theyll be gone. . .and thats really wierd. . . i hope u stick through it cause ur an amazing person and it will all turn out for the best!

    By Blogger Lina, At September 6, 2005 at 3:53 PM  

  • It is not a hopeless wish. That is, maybe things will never go back to being how they were, and that really stinks. But letting go and moving on, however completely and horrendously difficult, will (I just know) leave you so much better off than when you started. Don't forget all those first days of school, and certainly don't forget us back here still having them haha, but know that you are one of the most amazing people I know, and it won't take too long for all those people at NYU to realize it. All you have to do is open yourself up to them as the INCREDIBLE wonderful Heather that we all know and love and they will be eating out of your hand.

    I know you can do it.

    Go get 'em.

    I love you!

    By Blogger Ellie, At September 7, 2005 at 7:30 PM  

  • Hey - we own those schools (SS?CHA), remember? Remember Players and Chambers and all those really really silly things that no one can remember but that mattered? We did those things. We always have and we always will. And they'd be more than lucky to have us back there as a part of the class of 2006.

    And I'm taking you back with me when I go for Homecoming, when I go for Cabaret, when I go for the OTB show. So we can see all those rascals. =)

    By Blogger Tilly, At September 8, 2005 at 3:11 AM  

  • heather!!! albany supposedly has a ton of field trips to "the city" as everyone here calls it (i thought "the city" wass Albany but boy was i ever wrong lol). when i take a trip to "the city" i'll definitely give you a call! and please feel free to come visit me whenever you can, we're really not that far apart only like 2 hours or something by bus. we'll go partying! you're sucha great person, everyone will see that and love you!! definitely give me a call or an IM if you ever feel like talking!! im thinking of you heather and i miss you!
    <3 Bonnie

    By Blogger B, At September 8, 2005 at 5:28 PM  

  • Damn! I forgot to make your breakfast and take your picture! Oy. next year - okay? I'm realy remiss.

    By Anonymous Anonymous, At September 13, 2005 at 6:40 PM  

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