boredom

life here is offically boring. in spite of all the recent drama ... i don't know, even the drama seems forced, scheduled. it's like the drama is sort of inevitable, part of daily life. every day is the same as the one before. i get up after hitting the snooze button about four times, i somehow get myself into matching clothing and find a way to disguise my unwashed hair, i grab a breakfast bar (which never seems to hold me until lunch), i get in the car and regret not turning it on five minutes earlier after touching the icy steering wheel, i got to school, trudge through classes, absorb very little information, go to lunch (turkey sandwich, apple, soda, cookies), inhale lunch in under ten minutes (sometimes five), go to the library and sit - and do last night's homework - and sit and sit and have the same conversations i had the day before, go to more classes, absorb even less, go home, sit around, do homework (well, not really), go to bed tired and cranky. ive got the day down to the detail because it happens so often. the only break from the monotony comes from players. i need a new activity. a new outlook. a new conversation.