all shook up

i feel like i need to make a decision, but every time i get close to making one, fate seems to be throwing a new factor at me, making it impossible to choose. last night, i seemed to have it all (kind of) figured out. but then i had a dream that was so real that even now that i'm awake, the concept of it has me shaken. and that new bit has totally thrown off the things that i had figured out before. oy.