excursions in the w.c.

everything has been turned upside down in a matter of a few hours. my homesickness has transformed to dread, knowing that i have to leave. my cool and collected mind has become a mess of thoughts and my heart is making way too much noise up there. and what caused all this? the reignition of a spark and the knowledge that i haven't been alone when i thought i was lost in solitude. it's amazing how a single night can change everything.
so now i'm all confuzzled again. i know, i know, i probably could've seen it coming.
and i'm ill. vomitting is NO FUN. especially when it's not even induced by too much belgian beer.
on the upside . . . um . . . some clarity? some reassurance? i'm not sure, it's all to jumbled right now.