oh, college

so i just planned and booked a trip to nyc for college visits. and i got an application for northwestern in the mail. and i registered for the SAT's. it's all sort of hitting me at once - in a few months, i'll be deciding the next four years of my life. it's scary. the past year, i've been dying to get out, get to college. and now, when it's staring straight at me, i'm terrified. am i really ready to hit the big world on my own? i don't know . . . hopefully, the next year will shape me for that.